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I used to make my father proud Speaking the words he’d smile at Innocent and taking vows When I was younger Full of scars and my regrets Erasing pain with intoxicants Missing the days of innocence When I was younger You can ask me How I came to be A million souls in a single body Feel it in my bones Uneasy desperate tones A thousand more than I had felt Young and all alone When I was younger I write this note a thousand times To voice my penance for these crimes And reminisce of a better time When I was younger I used to have such big dreams I used to know what love means Back when life had meaning When I was younger

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you stood there right in front of me like destiny mhm or maybe a portent of that death at 28 i dreamed dilated and clean mhm into the mirror on mushrooms they say don’t look at your face but i did it anyway who was i kidding i wasn’t ready for you you stood there right in front of me with my naivety spilling held to the light, a sad brass melody ran down my cheeks i was singing to you shadow divin’ deep into the mirror dirty bathroom i could barely see my face but i kept staring anyway yeah who was i kidding i wasn’t ready for you you stood there right in front of me like an acid dream mhm this time there were six moons and five of them began to gleam one stayed dark and lost i think it’ll always be and in the mirror where our eyes bloom i said don’t look at my face but you saw me anyway man who was i kidding i wasn’t ready for you who was i kidding i wasn’t ready for you