Lyrics:

i was standin' around like one of those girls i had seen in a movie the whole world was a movie back then i had my sunglasses on i wanted to be seen without seeing Shy Lolita i wasn't really in it i didn't really get it i was every single girl, i was nobody else i was so sure of myself i was fifteen and a half he was a hollow laugh and i lost my cool somewhere along the way the nightmare down the hallway i had to learn how to look away i lost my cool no electricity hot rain on the concrete and sweet melting little girl dreams they said oh i want a big life not a 'how sad coulda been' life where are you taking me, where are you taking me i say everything i do i feel farther removed from my old life where is it taking me, where is it taking me i was standin' on my best friend's balcony feelin' a certain kinda wise at seventeen thinking the flare on the lens was the real thing she was with her boyfriend in the back room i was chain-smoking cigarettes and looking at the moon thought i was really in it i didn't really get it i lost my cool somewhere around the bend it started making less sense holding onto all that innocence i lost my cool i found it in a chemical dream the whole world is a movie screen and hudson avenue's melting i say oh i want a big life not a 'how sad coulda been' life where are you taking me, where are you taking me i say everything i do i feel farther removed from my old life where is it taking me, where is it taking me a portrait of my mother she says stay young, stay young, stay young, stay young i see my baby brother i just come undone it's some life i been living you don't know 'til you're in it then all of a sudden you can't get get back back out run run away oh i want a big life not a 'how sad coulda been' life where are you taking me, where are you taking me i say everything i do i feel closer to some kind of new life where is it taking me, where is it taking me